I saw the opportunity perfect to make it clear that, I’m no longer for him.
So, I left the room and walked straight to the living room, leaving him to his wondering mind.
He was already suspecting that, something was going on. Because, before coming to his house, I was already giving him cold attitudes just to make the break up less painful.
After I left the room, it took him 5 minutes before joining me.
He was scared of what was going on in my mind.
Loosing me was the only thing he feared most, according to him.
He loved me so dearly and couldn’t afford to loose me.
“This is not the reaction I was hoping for? I thought it’s something we both wanted?” He asked, already looking demoralised.
I didn’t say a word but my actions gave him a pinch of what was in my heart.
He continued: “Are you not ready? Listen, I can give you all the time you want, provided you stick to loving me and only me. You know I really can’t stand loosing you. Loosing you is like, asking me to loose my own life” he kept expressing his fears and this got me scared.
Breaking the news to him in that condition might create a very unwanted situation for me, so I decided to pause the whole idea a bit.
“You woke me up, right?” He asked
I glared right into his eyes. He wasn’t ready to receive that kind of news.
He repeated “Baby, do you have something to tell me? Your silence is giving me chills. Is there something I really need to know?”
So at this point, I needed to know what was in his heart. The impression my silence was giving him.
“Something like?” I asked
“I wouldn’t know, I don’t read minds”
“But what is your mind telling you?”
“I know something is amidst. You that I know would have thrown this flat into a wild jubilation. But it’s ok. I should have calculated your mood first, because I noticed you haven’t been yourself lately. Just know that, I’m here anytime you feel like sharing it.”
I said OK and walked back to the room, leaving him there.
The cold attitude was becoming evident and he wasn’t liking any of it.