My Life After Dating Cletus – the End

My Life After Dating Cletus – the End

I got pregnant the 7th time and decided to keep it from him. I didn’t want to tell him, so that he doesn’t force me to drink something to flush it again
I wanted the pregnancy to reach like 3 months before letting him know about it.
I didn’t know how he found out. He asked if I was pregnant and I said no.
He said, he knows me, that my body has changed and asked why I was lying.
And he still said I should drink something to remove it, but I told him this time I will never do it.

He said no problem that I should know that he wasn’t ready for marriage and wasn’t ready to cater for any responsibility.

I told him that, we are fine. We are living comfortable and that I have my own business aswell, he shouldn’t bother about any responsibilities. That what matters is that, I love him truly. And he said Ok.

I didn’t know that Cletus was avoiding to have anything that would connect us forever.
I also refused to see it.
Cletus was making money from his business, but he kept lying to me about it that his business was not moving fine. And I kept believing him.

To be frank, am shocked at the level of my stupidity.

After he saw that I wasn’t ready to remove the pregnancy again, he came up with a plan to run away.
But before he did that, he made sure he swindled all my savings.

He came up with a story that he needed money to buy some materials to deliver one job like that. That once he succeeded, he will have enough money to come and marry me.

And I believed him immediately and gave him the whole money in my account. And he thanked me and left, saying he will be going to Aba in Abia State to buy the materials. And that was the last time I saw Cletus.
He blocked me from everywhere. Even on WhatsApp.
Everywhere.
I felt like my world has ended. If I call with another line once he hears my voice, he disconnect it and block the line.
I later lost the 7th pregnancy due to the emotional breakdown I suffered. I attempted killing myself severally, but lacked the courage to. I starved myself for days, thinking about what he did to me and how to move ahead without him.
I couldn’t believe he Cletus could muster the mind to betray me and ran to another state.
I finally gathered the pieces of my life to move on with my life, and my friend brought another sad news.
And my world came crumbling again. She told me that Cletus is married and that his wife is heavily pregnant. That he is living in Owerri with his family.

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 He is living happy with his family while I’m still here, looking like an old woman, nurturing the guilt of all the innocent babies I terminated. I won’t allow Cletus to enjoy freely while I suffer this guilt alone. I can’t bear this alone. 😭😭. Pleasa ma, allow me to stop here, this pain is too much. I don’t know what to write again because it’s all pains upon pains.